Testing, testing, 1,2... tap tap...
Updated: Sep 23, 2020
It's really not so bad using both sides of my brain.
In reality, I very much enjoy the challenge of being able to use reason and creativity together, but sometimes, the anxiety and fear about my image, failure, success and the unknown can get the best of me.
Using one side of my mind to kill the other is no way to live either. Like exercise, a little bit of vulnerability can hurt a lot in the beginning, but it can lead to much better physical, emotional and mental experience in the long run.
"He/She/It/We/Us/They who laughs last, laugh best"
Or so He/She/It/We/Us/They say... I guess you could put almost anything there. I was referring to the verb, not the pronouns, but then again... it's all about respect.
Luckily, I am no stranger to fear. I know my enemy and without it, I wouldn't have survived.
I know better than to polarize between people pleasing, resentment and the seductive call of isolation, but to be honest, I'm very much the same as I used to be.
I just spend a lot less time in the thick of it, but sometimes it still feels like too long to be honest.
That being said, I have decided to surrender to my process and put myself out there.
I also don't have choice, but I do.
As a psychotherapist who specializes in anxiety and mood, I figured it wouldn't be a bad thing to lead by example. I mean what is the point of creating art, if there's no depth?
I've spent 20 plus years hearing the powerful and painful stories that mainstream society is not ready for and I figure it's time to spread a healthy tolerable dose of "truth" back into the system.
And as Doc Brown explains in "Back to the Future":
"The way I see it, if you're going to build a time machine into a car, why not do it with some style? Besides, the stainless steel construction made the flux dispersal...(watch beeps) Look out!"
Nothing like a little art, to keep us from dying from the truth, right Friedrich?
The stories and songs just come to me. I'm not sure where they come from, but I know the what happens if I keep them to myself.
Everyone needs sleep you know?
Every system has an energy exchange and transfer.
Everything is energy... This has been proven.
But what is energy?
"I can feel it."
I'm hoping you can too.
I promise to do my best to make an impression that leads you to a better way of being in this crazy place we call our universe.
88 miles per hour baby!
Thanks for listening...